Dear Diary,
I am torn. I do not know what will become of me in the near future. I am confused because my beloved Mr. Rochester has deceived me. He did not mention of his crazy wife Bertha and he went ahead and married me. I do not understand how he could have thought that I would be understanding. I trusted this man with my life, and he took me for a fool! I know that the right choice is leaving, and I will, but it pains me. I felt safe and unconditionally happy with him here in Thornfield. For once in my life I thought that things had taken a turn for the better and I can be happy. I felt like he understood me so well and we could give each other a hard time and enjoy every second of it. However, I never believed that such an intelligent and strong man could be so needy and irritable, but he showed his true colors. Can u believe that he took my hand in his strong grip and hurt me out of fury? My body shook and trembled, but my choice was set. I only angered him further, but right then I knew I was making the right decision. His constant pleading and cries only solidified my choice. I cannot sit here and take all of this nonsense. I need to leave while I still can and never look back. All that I have imagined is now broken, but it is better than questioning my husband for the rest of my life. I am nervous for what God has in store for me from now on, but hopefully he will let me move on. This is by far one of the most painful days of my life, but as I have learned, love hurts.
Jane E.
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