Dear Diary,
Don't I deserve love? True, I am arguably the most romantically challenged but please, my sister? I met Thomas first, we felt that initial connection. It isn't fair how Jenny always gets what she wants through her manipulative ways! I do not wish to show my jealous side, but diary, I am hurt. I am more hurt than I let on. Every moment she is with him, I grieve inside. When Thomas is around me, I forget how strong and confident I am. I become weak at the knees and i cannot change my reaction. it is always a competition with her, since we were little. And I finally have something to myself! Jenny cannot bare to be left out of what I have, with the exception of my career. She swooped in at the most perfect moment and consoled Thomas in his most vulnerable state. I saw her and what was coming, but I did not do anything. I watched it all unfold, and I eventually saw them get married before Thomas left for war. Diary, losing Christian, Thomas, and James to the cold grasp of the army has really left me internally shaken up, but I have to stay strong. I have to stay strong not only for myself, but for mother and Bonnie. They need me and I will always be there for them.
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