“The terrible truth comes slowly clear to me: with her weakening, I will never be able to hold my mother accountable for her outcasting of me. There is no time for our history to be righted” (153).
In this excerpt, Hall shares the beginnings of her mother's MS. She moves her into her home and cares for her daily as her disease worsens and worsens. As time goes by, Hall awaits the time in which her mother expresses guilt or apologizes for her actions in the past. However, that time never comes. Hall realizes that with her mother's weakening, she cannot drop this bomb on her. She cannot bring up the troubling and hard past and risk fighting with her fragile mom. The old woman simple doesn't have the strength and Meredith cannot put her through something that serious. Furthermore, Hall also realizes that her past is basically set in stone, and that makes her uneasy. Nothing can be done or resolved any longer. The past is the past and it will never be unearthed. No matter how much she wanted their past to be righted, Hall had to make peace with the fact that that was never going to happen while her mom had this horrible sickness.
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